Toy Box

So, I had t0 do the usual today...run errands,grocery shopping,and laundry. But, I amused myself at the arts and crafts store.I've been looking for a toy box for ages and this one wanted to come home with me.I especially love the high heel on the lid. I also added some feathers and a white mask to my collection of goodies.

I placed it on the cedar chest at the base and it looks fabulous...

Updates and Issues

The details...



So, I spent the long weekend with my family in Ohio.





I love my family...but wow that was too much time with them. Some highlights? Dinner with my brother-in-law and sister. I LOVE her. She's my evil partner-in-crime. Saw my gay husband and he is coming for a week...next Thursday!!! Woot. Saw my besties from highschool. We are going to NKOTB next month...I am so excited.




Obsessions...


J.R. Ward books..I HAVE to read all of them! BDSM,vampires,wicked sex,and humor.....woot!
Trueblood....new HBO series. LOVE it! Lafeyette and Tara remind me of me and my gay b'friend....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ArOIjn4TZWc
















My Ride...

I had to buy a new car. My beloved Vitara died on the PA turnpike. But I have a new luvah....my silver KIA Spectra. The salesman looked like Mike Rowe from Dirty Jobs on Discovery. Sidenote? I was smitten with him. He was adorable and made me a sweet deal. He called to check that I arrived in VA alright.










Man update....





Dr. Feelgood-Still in a holding pattern. I can't do today. He can't Sunday....sigh.
Mr. Electric-Heard from him last night. And will hear more today. More later.
Mr. Dominant-Probably a fling. I'll see Sunday. :)
Ace-He is being deployed in August. :( We are talking more lately. I miss him. I hate admitting that,but I do. He still gets to me. He came over...talked last night. No touching! He made me laugh. His squadron has a cardboard cutout of Fabio and he showed me pics of Fabio engaged in lewd acts.
Fable-He is 23, super cute and curious about bdsm...I love being the teacher. He wants to try both roles.

Sexy,Sour, and Sweet

As a Domme,who am I?



I've been thinking about this a lot. I'm still coming into my own. Figuring out what I can and want to do. I feel different but I'm still growing.



As women,we are socialized to sacrifice. To be soliticous. To be sweet. This is in direct opposition to the role of dominant. Yet,I find it leaking out of me now and then. This sort of thing is ingrained and has spread deep roots. I find myself not wanting to take advantage of someone or be demanding....



yet I crave it. It FEELS good,right,sexy. And,yes,powerful.



I see it happening in my other relationships,not just my play relationships. A guy I work with, I'll call him Bashful,after the dwarf. He came into to remind me about a meeting we were going to. I told him I'd be there in a second. He tried to tell me he'd go without me.



I smiled slyly and said, "No,you'll wait for me on the first floor and we'll walk over together."

I'll be damned if he did it.

And followed me like a puppy for the rest of the day.



I like that feeling!



Christina Aguilera's newest release resonates with me...



Yeah baby

Theres a villan in me

So sexy sour and sweet

And you'll be lovin' it

No Sex in my City

Sigh. Dating sucks. Its just so exhausting.Confusing,too.

Got stood up the minister. I'm giving him another chance. Mainly because boyfriend has issues. I like helping others and I'm not all that into him. He's so vulnerable and charming...but my feelings aren't all that sexual.He explained himself and we are okay.

Still I think it would be a thrill to corrupt him...all Thornbirds like.

I cancelled with Mr. Electric. Had to work. He told me spent the evening with a woman he has a crush on. He gave her a footrub and seems very into her. Apparently,he stated,that he was tingly from touching her.

Um..okay...?

I also heard from Ace today.

Yes, Ace.

What the crap? Out of the blue he called. He is still dating the "dirty hippie" woman. She's vanilla,five years younger,and has a kid. He told me several times he missed me. He also said "I love you" or "I love ya" several times. Not sure which.Ace also stated that he "would do anything for me". So confusing.

What the hell is that? What does he want?

Heard from the cop,too. He begged me to let him come over.I declined but talked to him. He says he wants "to get into my head" and that we "could be good for each other". Hmmmm....

I guess I just feel...blah. I seem to be attracting men who are not that into me. Or the ones I don't want...? Can't get enough of me.

Ironic,no?