As a Domme,who am I?
I've been thinking about this a lot. I'm still coming into my own. Figuring out what I can and want to do. I feel different but I'm still growing.
As women,we are socialized to sacrifice. To be soliticous. To be sweet. This is in direct opposition to the role of dominant. Yet,I find it leaking out of me now and then. This sort of thing is ingrained and has spread deep roots. I find myself not wanting to take advantage of someone or be demanding....
yet I crave it. It FEELS good,right,sexy. And,yes,powerful.
I see it happening in my other relationships,not just my play relationships. A guy I work with, I'll call him Bashful,after the dwarf. He came into to remind me about a meeting we were going to. I told him I'd be there in a second. He tried to tell me he'd go without me.
I smiled slyly and said, "No,you'll wait for me on the first floor and we'll walk over together."
I'll be damned if he did it.
And followed me like a puppy for the rest of the day.
I like that feeling!
Christina Aguilera's newest release resonates with me...
Yeah baby
Theres a villan in me
So sexy sour and sweet
And you'll be lovin' it
I've been thinking about this a lot. I'm still coming into my own. Figuring out what I can and want to do. I feel different but I'm still growing.
As women,we are socialized to sacrifice. To be soliticous. To be sweet. This is in direct opposition to the role of dominant. Yet,I find it leaking out of me now and then. This sort of thing is ingrained and has spread deep roots. I find myself not wanting to take advantage of someone or be demanding....
yet I crave it. It FEELS good,right,sexy. And,yes,powerful.
I see it happening in my other relationships,not just my play relationships. A guy I work with, I'll call him Bashful,after the dwarf. He came into to remind me about a meeting we were going to. I told him I'd be there in a second. He tried to tell me he'd go without me.
I smiled slyly and said, "No,you'll wait for me on the first floor and we'll walk over together."
I'll be damned if he did it.
And followed me like a puppy for the rest of the day.
I like that feeling!
Christina Aguilera's newest release resonates with me...
Yeah baby
Theres a villan in me
So sexy sour and sweet
And you'll be lovin' it
Actually I think being sweet, solicitous and dominant are just a killer combo. Strictness with a nurturing hand will make me drool at her feet every time. It's the sexy sour/sweetness of it all.
ReplyDeleteI have a clip of Christina doing James Brown's It's A Man's World a la The Godfather which I'm scheming on how to work into my blog. She is soooooo hot. Her Mick duet of "Live With Me" in "Shine A Light" totally rocked. I saw it last year at the IMAX. Her heels were like, OMG, six feet high!! ;-P Would love to see her live.
Ms Rayne,
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about Your troubles in finding a suitable submale. We're a mixed bag for sure, but then again it shouldn't some as a total surprise that a man who claims to become aroused when You treat him mean and unfair could be somewhat strange. Wishing You the best of luck in Your hunt, You certainly deserve it. Your craving to be demanding seems to make You a natural dominant, it's such a waste of domination capacity if You don't find the right subbie (or subbies).